Maccardy's.

2009-08-17T18:03:00.002+08:00

Been busy with soso many stuff..

Finally, the national day roadshow is all over..
My fav one was at marina square..
omg the crowd was f awesome!
I'm still waiting for the photos from the photographers, managements and frens..

Well, I'm starring in this short film called 'Rememberence'
I'm playing a guy named 'Jerry' he's the lead role..
Jerry is a geeky, shy guy who secretly has a huge crush on his long lost childhood friend named Violet..

Filming started last thurs..I'm kinda lazy to type about it at the moment..
It's still under production.. since I'm schooling full time, they only film when I'm free..
So that means my weekends and everyday aft school for the next few days are filled with filming sessions..

Most of you readers might already know that I'm a drama teacher for EDN Media..
Here's something to share.. 2 weeks ago, EDN Media contacted me to teach at MOE Language Centr at Bishan on last Sat... The crazy thing about that was, I didn't teach drama classes.. Instead, I thought ppl from overseas how to speak English. LOL
They are the future 'MPs' from what I was told..
They were ppl from Japan, Korea, Middle Eastern, Indon, Malaysia and a few other countries.
I was kinda shocked that EDN called me up.. But obviously I didn't do it alone, there's this other Teacher named Mr. Philips who coulad speak 14 diff languages...I assisted him..lol..
Was fun..

And ytd, which is Sunday, I DJ'ed a wedding at Tampines st 21 blk 263.
Amy was down with Chicken Pox so Hairul and me runned the show while Man was behind the console. We had fun... Me and Tango went to chill at coffee beans aft that THEN....
We went drinking again...lol..Tango drank beer while I had long island..
I came to class this morning with a lil hangover.. But it was nothing compared to the first hangover I had in class last month..damn.. I gotta stop all these soon man..

Anyhoos.. tmr's the 3rd day of filming..lets just hope I won't forget the lines this time round..

1 more thing I wanna say..
This is what I think and its a personal feeling. For those who don't agree with me, I'm not even asking you to..
I think ALL girls are bitches. Yes, I said ALL. If you're a girl, YOU ARE A BITCH.
I don't trust ANY girls, they are in this world just to use guys. So fuck all you girls out there!
I'll stand my ground and stick with my mindset.

Like I said, this is what I think, so keep ur f comments to urself if u don't agree with me.

Jab

2009-07-30T12:15:00.002+08:00

How could u lie to me? I tot u were honest, how could u??
I knew there was something fishy going on..
I knew somehow u were lying but I chose to believe u... I chose to fucking believe u!

Watch ur fuckin back boi! I'll fuckin hunt u down D!
I'll make sure you'll get it..and u will.. just wait and see punk!

I WILL FUCKING HUNT U DOWN D JUST WATCH UR FUCKING BACK BOI!

2009-07-25T09:11:00.001+08:00

I've been touring around Singapore performing for the National Day Roadshow starting from 18 July.
I've performed at Toa Payoh Hub Mall and Jurong Point Mall last weekend, now I'm coming to the east side at Tampines1 Mall for this weekend.
So catch me perform live at ur hometown!

Here are the dates and locations.

18 & 19 July - @ Toa Payoh Hub Mall (Done)
25 & 26 July - @ Jurong Point Mall (Done)
1 & 2 Aug - @Tampines Open Feild Opp' Tampines1
5 & 6 Aug - @ Republic Poly
8 & 9 Aug - @ Marina Square

For any questions or enquiries, send me comments or msgs and I'll try my best to reply ASAP

Cheers,
Jab MacCardy
AffroDyna-Mic Entertainment
Talent House Studios: G *Star Pham

2009-07-21T20:33:00.002+08:00

Canceled all briefings and recordings for today and tmr cos my mom got warded again..
Both dad and mom were out ytd night to Punggol Plaza's NTUC for grocery shopping.
On their way back, mom felt breathless and had chest pain.. She couldn't walk... Dad called Sis, sis told me and I immediately changed and ran all the way to punggol plaza... Got there, told dad to call the ambulance, but mom was stobourn, she just doesnt wanna go hospital.. She hates to be warded... But we had no choice..

I was already diling 995 then dad said to wait for elder bro.. Elder bro got off work and drove back immediately. Bro and me sent mom to SGH by car while dad rode there..

Mom was rushed to ER and dad, bro and me had to wait in the waiting room...Waited till slightly after 1am and dad told us to go back.. Doc said mom had to stay in...

Mom was tranfered to ICU this morning.. now I just got back from visiting her..
DR. Amy Eng, who is our family doctor from SGH, told us we are sitting on a time bomb...
I really don't like how that sounds like..

I pray hard for mom's recovery... She made it through when she got warded in 06', 07' and 08'.. I know she'll make through this year..

I love u mom... You're the only lady who had never left me before...

Jab :'(

2009-07-20T10:40:00.003+08:00

I keep having these dreams about her... Damn it I miss her...

I can't believe I'm saying this but, I think I kinda regret knowing her... because of all the pain she put me through.. all the pretends and lies... I feel used... really I do...

Because of her, I started smoking again...because of her, I started drinking again.. I even went to class having fucked up hangovers from a night of drinking and getting high..
because of her, I do stupid things just to make myself feel better and to forget about my pain...

Who knew that heartless ppl like her even existed in this world... I didn't
I'm only human, I have feelings too... I just wish that 1 day soon she would open her eyes and realize that this is the real world... This is life..

Maybe only then, she would understand and try to think more maturely..
Maybe only then, she would stop playing games with love..
Maybe only then, she would realize her mistakes and learn from them..
Maybe only then, she would stop using people..

You know... I'm really on a crossroad now.. Part of my life is falling apart, while the other half is working hard and getting there...

All in all, I just wanna wish her all the best in life and hope that karma will take place soon.. Because I think that's the only way to make her wake up... Not that I'm hopping bad things would happen to her or anything..
I just want her to understand life in a more mature level.. So maybe karma can help..

I loved u FJV, what did I do that made u leave me hanging cold?
U look so young and innocent... Who knew you'd be so cold and heartless in the inside...

If you didn't wanna have anything with me, why start something in the first place?
Love is not a game dear, pls understand that...

I miss u FJV, I really do... :(

2009-07-15T19:02:00.002+08:00

Fucked up!!

One of my classmates was infected with H1N1 and guess what??
I'm quarantined for 7 days!!... But I've got work and stuff...

The National Day Tour Concert starts this weekend onwards..how am I spose to perform???
How bout rehearsals??? how bout recordings??

I've got a bridal photo shoot on Sunday!

And I've got filming tmr for OKTO!.... how how HOW!!!!!!!!

Damn!!!

2009-07-07T12:51:00.002+08:00

Class ended early today.. so as usual, I headed home straight...
I took the train to pasir ris and frm there I took the bus..
I was listenin to "Hello" by evanescence on my my mp3... Fyfe loved that song...
suddenly, I felt like calling her...But I knew she wouldn't ans my calls...but I really wanted to...

Then here's the painful part....the song ended and it went to the next track...and the next track was "Gone" by justin timberlake...when I listen to the lyrics...OMFG...all the flash backs of me and her came back...everything from our 1st ever date till my b'day, till that time we ton at ecp till the time when she started to ignore and avoid me...
I tried so hard to stop myself from crying...I even covered my face with my file...I couldn't help it...tears were running down my face..I was really missing her so badly... I remembered all the places we went to and all the things we did...all the hours we spent on the phone and stuff... sigh...all the memories of me and her was and still is flashing in my head...this is really killing me...this hurts sosososososo much...damn...

Here's the lyrics to the song....the lyrics are so true....

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..

You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...

I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
The time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

Yeah....

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone

Oh...

Oh, what will I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oh...

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..

But the truth remains
You're....

She's gone :'(

2009-07-04T19:03:00.002+08:00

People just can't accept me being nice..
They test me...they push me over the edge..
so fuck it... here's the asshole everyone's been waiting for..

Behind every asshole, there's a bitch that made him that way.

2009-07-01T20:27:00.002+08:00

Its been a whole week since the last time she contacted me...
I decided to give her some space... well, looks like she's enjoying me not contacting her..
I don't think she even gives a hoot if I were to die right now..

Its official...this is the worst I've been treated since Dudu...
Since we started dating till now, there's not even a minute in my life that I didn't think about her..

I always worry about her
I always care about her
I always think about her
I always hope for her
I always give in to her

I made sure she always eats
I made sure she gets what she wants
I made sure she was always happy
I made sure she was mixing with the right people
I made sure that shiny smile stayed on her sweet dolly face
I made sure she never pays a single cent when she's with me

I was there when she was feeling blue
I was there when she felt lonely
I was there when she was unwell
I was there when all she needed was a good laugh

It wasn't and never will be easy being me...

As the world turns and as I keep growing older, I'll be facing this bullshit till Hell freezes over

Jab....

2009-06-24T23:56:00.002+08:00

Got back from chalet.
Mood: I wanna get f drunk pls...

Well, overall, she said she had fun...thats good to hear..

Everything was going so well, till she went out for awhile, didn't know where she was going..
she came back with 3 guys holding helmets..
That kinda pissed me off...I was really disappointed.. I don't mind if she wants to bring any of her friends or anything..really, I don't.. just that, she didn't even tell me they were coming.. and those 3 guys didn't even say hello or anything.. That made me pissed.. I felt that she was really being disrespectful towards me.. I mean.. Its my chalet and she could have atleast introduced them or something..
she spent the whole night with them, I was like a fool waiting for her to say something..

I'm not stupid neither am I blind, I noticed they were actually trying to avoid getting noticed by me, so they sneaked in the chalet and used the toilets and stuff.. one of them even crashed in and slept in one of the beds...
I really really felt she had no respect for me at all..

Now I'm just waiting for her to apologize to me for her behavior..
That is if she even cares... I don't think she does..

I feel soso heartbroken and not respected at all...

Jab....

2009-06-22T09:50:00.002+08:00

I'm just a random guy that she knows... or knew...

Fuck it

Tanggo told me to just cancel the party.. but I don't want to..cos I think about her feelings..
I don't wanna break her heart...
its her birthday party... I have no rights, although I am hosting it but still..its her birthday..
but its okay...she said she doesn't wanna see me with a black face on her party.. so I'll do what I do best...ACTING... I'll just grab a mask and put up a poker face like how I always do...

I was brought up by a wonderful mother...
I will always remember what my mommy thought me..
"Let others do it to you, but don't you do it to others"

I will follow my mother's footsteps... she always told me that forgiveness is always the best..
And that is why I never take revenge..
Because I know, somehow, sooner or later, revenge will take place by itself..

sigh...
I WANNA TURN BACK TIME DAMN IT!!!

2009-06-20T09:53:00.002+08:00

I just got back from a fucked up night...

What have I done to deserve this? Was it because I rejected Izzy last year? Is it because I don't pray enough? Is it because I care too much? Is it because I always give in? Is it because I'm just too softhearted? sigh...

I'm hosting her b'day party next week at a chalet at downtown east... She asked me whether bbq is included in the chalet package... I said I didn't know.. she told me to go find out.. So I went down to downtown east to find out..
After going into the NEBO office to check it out, I felt thirsty so Tanggo and I went to a nearby bubbletea store for a drink...

She told me she was going out..But I didn't know who with and stuff...I didn't wanna ask cos she said I'm asking too much and stuff... So I kept quiet..

So after paying for the bubbletea, what seemed like a nightmare came true..
I saw her walking with a guy from my course...
I couldn't believe my eyes, I stared blankly at her with a ??? on my face..
She saw me, she smiled and walked away...
Picture that ppl... put yourself in my position... how would you fucking feel???
Tanggo told me to chill... I couldn't take it, I broke down..
I really wasn't acting myself, I immediately bought a pack of ciggs and smoked...
I just waited and to see if she even has the cheeks to call or even text me..
NOTHING! So I called her instead, this time, she answered the call..AMAZING..bcos usualy when she's out or even when she's at home, she rarely answers my calls..
So then I asked what she was doing, she said she and that guy were looking for Sue..
I was too dissapointed to remember anything else.. But what I remembered next was, Tanggo had to go off and meet his gf.. so he left.. I did the craziest thing... I bought liq, went to pasir ris park and drank... I wanted to get fucking drunk so badly...but I couldn't..I don't know why... I didn't come home last night..

whatever it is... fuck it... she claims that I'm not her fuckin bf anyways..

Someone kill me pls...

Jab......

Nightmare coming true...

2009-06-19T10:05:00.002+08:00

I'm really not enjoying life now..
I can just die now...
You know, some of my friends told me something that is really disturbing.. and as much as I don't wanna believe them, somehow, I think it might be true..

They said that the only reason she is treating me this way and ignoring me and stuff is probably because she is seeing other guys..he broke it down for me and lay down all the facts and possibilities.. GODDAMN IT!
The moment Tango told me that, I felt like punching him in the fucking face and let him bleed to death.. but on the other hand, the only reason he told me all those things was because he cared about me and he didn't wanna see his buddy hit rock bottom... I appreciate it, but I just can't accept that she is leaving me for some other dude.. no Tanggo, I know u are trying to save me from another failed relationship, but I choose not to believe u this time.. even if I see her walking in the streets with another guy, I still won't believe that she is seeing other guys...Untill the moment comes when she really tells me in my fucking face that its over and she is seeing other guys... That will be the moment that anything can happen.. and I mean anything, I might even kill someone..or myself... damn it F... why are u putting me through all this...sigh.. I always give in to u, pls don't do this to me.. It hurts so much..can't u see I'm bleeding??
I rather die than to endure this pain.. just tell me that you'll be there for me when I need you..

Jab ='(

I'm disgusted with myself...

2009-04-25T21:13:00.002+08:00

My days are getting worse overnight....
yuck....

I really hate it when things like this happens to me..
And you know what the worst part is??? I don't have a buddy or a bestie for me to share my probs with... All the anger, sadness and what not are trapped in me.. I can't let it out.... GODDAMNIT!!!
sigh... sometimes I feel really really pissed with my own self for getting into these situations over and over and over and over again.. It's like I never learn my lesson.. why do ppl love to see me miserable? do some ppl have a like...a hobby or something?? whereby they can't stand it when ppl are happy... they MUST make other's life miserable..its like a past time..or something they MUST do before they die.... a wishlist or a resolution..

:(:(:(

2009-04-15T20:43:00.003+08:00

I'm hypnotized. I can't stop this feeling... I can't even if I want to..
It's too strong to let go now...
Why....why me????
You gave others the chance but why does it have to stop at me??

I don't want you to feel like I'm too much... I don't want you to be sick of me...
But at the same time, I don't want us to be too far apart.. I don't want the fear of losing you to come true.. I really don't know what to do..I'm stuck.. all I can do is wait..
Sometimes I just feel like god is testing me..
I know he is..
I have patience..

It kills...but I'm still enduring...
still enduring...

A deep punch in the tummy

2009-04-05T21:59:00.002+08:00

At work, at school, at home, with my friends, families, colleagues...
Talking , eating, slacking, playing, working...
I joke around..
I seem to be having fun, happy, laughing, cracking jokes..
Making ppl happy..
Fooling aroung, helping the ppl around me here and there..

That is how I look like from the outside..

But in the inside..I'm crying so loud... I'm in pain..so much pain..
I'm dying.. It hurts so much..can anyone see me bleeding??

It hurts to not be satisfied, and when all odds are against you.
It hurts to not please ppl when you really have done your best.
It hurts to not get what you want the most even when you work so hard to deserve it.
It hurts when something you really want is right in front of you, but yet, it seem so far away..
It hurts to wake up every morning to put on this mask and act as if everything is going smoothly when it's really not.
It hurts when you keep working for something but in the end what you get is really less than what you deserve...

But all in all.. I always believe that I will get what I want if I really work towards it and stay committed.
I can never fail if I never stop trying, the only time that I really fail is when I quit and stop believing..
So there's always that hope for me.. no matter how ugly the road is, I still face it as I know this is what it takes to get what I want the right way...

So I have to just endure the pain and keep this mask on for the sake of my needs...

Whoever that is reading this, it has nothing to do with whatever you are thinking of.. No, I'm not talking about you, stop thinking that I am.. I am just saying this in general.. think however you wanna think. It is wrong, at the same time, it is also right...
yeah... 'whatever' right?
Nobody in the world can understand how I feel...

This is Jabbar Bathaluddin
Good night.

2009-04-04T11:29:00.006+08:00

Hey readerzz..miss me?? hee..

Sorry for not updating, told u im busy... esp this year...

and and and I'm back being a student now! hee :P ... I'm pursuing Hair Fashion and Design course at ITE East College...
I'm enjoying 2009 very much.. better than 2008.. I love my life right now..
Everything is new now..new school, new friends, new jobs and a new.... ;)
...everything is going soooo swell!!!

oh wow..where do I start..hmm..ok..
School has been great, the course is fun and interesting..and the lecturers are also great..
I've got a few local lecturers and a few from outta town..
From singapore;
Mr. Venson Ong, Miss Eileen Hong and Miss Jolene Ang
Germany - Miss Beernan
United Kingdom - Miss Susan Robinson
Hmm...I joined rock climbing club for my CCA but I hadn't attend the sessions yet..hoho..
I'm also the class chairman and chosen to be the school's Student Ambassador..
what a nice head start for this year huh? hehe

About 65% of my course mates are girls.. only 4 malay girls, 2 malay dudes..the rest are chinese and others..

As for me..I've met someone....we're going out...hee...

Okay, am having my March holidays now, but we've got a school project to do..I've done mine yesterday with my group.. my group consists of E'era, Afiq, Wei Lun, Simon and ofcours, yours truly... we were spose to meet at Yew Tee cos we already planned to use Kelly Salon for our project. then..last min, wei lun and simon called and say they couldn't make it for the project.. and do you know what reason they gave us?? they said they had family prob.. c'mon man..if u guys don't wanna do the project or are lazy to do it..just speak the truth man.. we weren't born like yesterday.. that kinda pissed me off ytd.. its a GROUP project, but both of them backed out at the last min..its not fair for the group..

anyhoos.. after the project, we headed to a near by mac'd for an early dinner.. Afiq went back early cos he was tired I gezz.. so I was left with E'era.. I was spose to meet FJV at ard 8.30 at Clark Q... and E'era also wanted to meet her bf at ard the same time.. but it was only like..5+..so we decided to just walk around the nearby mall to kill time.. then we realised that the mall was kinda boring so we decided to head to chua chu kang's new mall, Lot One.. it was huge..really interesting too.. as it was my first time going to that place, E'era acted as a tour guide..ok one thing about E'era..she is very funny..she's hollow and not shy to act..lol..so she acted as a tour guide, around the big mall..then we went to Popular book store to read some magazines.. we talked and chill then it was almost 8 already..so she went off to meet her bf and I went off to meet FJV..

I went to Clark Q, met her at the station and we sat near the reaver where MOS used to be..
we just sat and talked...talk and talk and talk about our day.. I always have fun talking with her..she never bores me.. okay so.. she wanted to be home by 11.30 to catch this japanese horror movie.. so, we made a move at around 10.05, I sent her to her stop and we went our seperate ways.. she never fails to make my day..
I came home, had a shower, ate AGAIN...oh yeah, I eat alot nowdays.. like a PIG! I always feel hungry now I don't know why..

so that was my day ytd.. I'll update more later k.. now, picture time!
kk I remebered promising u guys I'd post pictures last time right?
well..I don't have the pictures where I performed at DXO club, its still with bob and Its been some time since I met him..but I do have pictures from the countdown performance at Downtown East, D'marquee..

Bye for now ! (:(:(:

2008-11-26T19:48:00.003+08:00

Hey readerzzz...

Had a meeting with NEBO club and some other ppl that I shouldn't mention... And looks like I'm gonna be performing with dancers at the countdown party this year... but the bad part bout it is..my slot is freakin' early! it'll be around 9 plus -_-" I'll try my best to nego with the management..

Anyhoo...enough bout work...been visiting my dearest mom at the hospital...she seems to be happy whenever I'm there..and by seeing her happy, I'm happy :D LOVE YA MOM!
Ok let me share something bout what happened at the hospital a few days back..

My mom's been warded for quite sometime now..so I'm quite familiar with the nurses at my mom's ward... but there was this particular nurse who I've never seen before...she kept looking at me whenever my phone rang... then there's this one time I was outside of my mom's room, talking on the phone and she kept looking at me...its like..she knows me or something.. then after quite some time, I was talking on the phone and laughing and accidentaly looked at her..and she tot I was smiling to her so she smiled back..LOL....okla...gotta admit...she's kinda cute...haha..

here are some my baby nephew's pics...he's already 8 months old now.. time really flies..

MATIN! during hari raya...

cute kan!!!!

I'll update again tmr or something... byebye
(:

2008-11-24T09:49:00.002+08:00

sorry for the previous post, was being too emotional...sigh...

anywayzz... I just changed my phone..AGAIN...
I know..i just changed to N95 like..3 weeks ago..now I'm changing again... to a PDA...
kinda convenient for me.. yeah and most of my contacts are gone so.. all my friends out there who has my number, pls text me ur name and number so i can save urs into my contact list, thanks..

I've got some hospital pics to post...took some ytd, but..lets make u guys wait...cos I'm late for work..ok I'll post em' after work k.. if not, maybe tmr..

seeya then....

2008-11-23T02:04:00.002+08:00

Got home at around 12+ from work and hospital...

Shit shit shit shit SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok I tuned on my lappy, transfered some songs to my phone then I accidentally opened the folder that contains all my msn history conversations... gezz what..the 1st conversation file I saw and immidiately opened was D_ _ _'s .... ok here's a 2nd hint... its a she and she played a really really REALLY huge part of my life during the bigining of this year... I read and teared through ALL of our conversation, it took me like and hour to read through till the very end and it really brought back the memory and image of her... sigh...I really miss her allot...I really tot she was the one.. sigh... why did u left me?? what did he have that I don't?? It seemed like it didn't even affect u at all.. u left me just like that... I know u apologised but...u acted as though nothing happened after that... I still remember u telling me ur love for him was fake and all u wanted was US... U even said that no matter what, u would still love me.. I don't think u really understood what u said..maybe ur young but I seriously think that ur mature enough to not play games with love..its clear that love is not a game...
sigh...I just wish u can come back to me...I really really miss u...I've been single for sooo freaking long and u came into my life and took my heart just like that... I fell for u...why did u leave me coldheartedly... if ur reading this, i just want u to know that nobody can ever be another D_ _ _ in my life and my feelings for u is still the same... Pls do gimme a sign, a msg, a holla.. just something to let me know that you've read this..cos I really want u to know this..

I don't even give a fuck what u people out there are saying if ur reading this.. this is my blog and I have all the fucking rights to say what I wanna say.. don't like it? get the fuck outta here...

sigh... I hope this won't haunt me in my sleep aswell..that is if I can get some sleep..
I'm sorry for the harsh post but...I'm just really really stressful nowdays..I just have got too much things and bullshit on my chest right now.. :'(

2008-11-21T04:07:00.005+08:00

(An old old pic of me, before i became a model. LOL)

Hey hey...
i know..its already 4 am and am still not asleep yet..
sigh...I just don't understand some girls nowdays... nvm..
ok some random stuff that happened today..

its already the 5th day of filming..
I got lost on the way to the set just now.. I had to meet the rest at commonwealth drive blk 78..I ended up at blk 87...yeah..blurrrr mee....was sposed to meet them at 10 am...got there at 11.30, BOLEH??? sigh..

Anyhoo... had a meeting with Nebo and club DXO's management yesterday.. gezz what.. I'll be performing at club DXO somewhere around the 1st week of Dec...how awesome can life get huh?? haha.. I know i promised some pics and vids right..kk, lemme post the vid 1st... this is a vid of me, Burn and Hype performing 'Show Off'(the 3rd track on my imeem list) at D'marquee last month...

Ok I'm damn sleepy now... I've got filming in the morning then i've got a meeting with Amway...

Night night..or morning morning.. (:

2008-11-16T18:08:00.002+08:00

Hey yaw..

I'm feeling so freaking exhausted now..I'm really not having enough sleep for the past couple of days...

Okok, I owe u guys a post for fri and yesterday..

I ended work at around 3 plus on friday..We had Hair & Make up class module 6 on that day... was kinda fun and lame at the same time..lol..cos we kinda already know most of the stuff about the eyes and stuff..anyhoo..something something happened and I got to know something that really surprised me!..
haha...One of my colleagues told me Dawn had a crush on me..lol!
Thats not the surprising part yaw! get ready for this..
Dawn is 24 and she's already engaged! Lol.... These are the kinda girls I'm trying to avoide.. Ladies, if you're attached or already in a relationship, please be loyal and not do these things to your partner..It'll really hurt them..
I'll try my best to stay away from Dawn from now on..lol...
But I must say, she's kinda hot..haha! notty jab jab!
Anyhoo, I went to the hospital after work to visit my dearest mum..
I'm so happy to see her smile..hee..
She kept saying she doesn't wanna eat..but she's hungry..
Sigh...I just hope she'll get back her apatite soon..

Saturday, 15 Nov 2008. The day I had to coach Jun Yuan Primary School in the morning then filming at Commonwealth in the afternoon.

Well, slept at 3 plus, woke up at 5.30 a.m..
Showered, then got ready for work..
Left the house at around 6.45 cos I had to be at Queen's Rd by 7.30..
Packed the gears then got up the truck and off to Jun Yuan Pri..btw, the school shifted to simei for awhile cos they are doing some upgrading at tamp..

The kids there are really cool and they treated me well.. and oh..I forgot to tell u..my aunt is the principal of that school..haha.. I swear, the kids there are really funny and cute..there's this group of pri 6 girls who likes to bully me..and they always call me 'cher' haha..

P6 girl: Cher cher, are u chi or malay ah?
me: don't call me that, im not ur teacher, just call me coach..
another P6 girl: Cher cher, what's your name?
me: I'm not your teacher la..just call me coach Jab..haha
P6 girl: kk coach Jab..how old are u?
me: I'm 12, just like u guys (giggles)
P6 girls: DON'T BEDEK, DON'T BEDEK!

haha...lame..I know.. but they are fun..but some of them are really notty..
They session ended at around 10.30..we packed all the gears and settled at around 11... then we had to wait for the truck.. then we got to know that Jason(one of the coaches) and the truck is at macpherson pri still coaching and we had to wait for like 2 hours for him to get back to jun yuan..
coaches who were posted at jun yuan: Victor, Nazurah, Syafiqah and me..
we were getting hungry waiting for the truck, really felt like ditching and just head to eastpoint and makan! lol..we tot about it and its not right la..haha..
so while waiting, we just skated around in and chatted..

Truck came back, Jason kena lecture.lol..then we headed to bedok centre for lunch..ate till we couldn't eat anymore, then headed back to queen's rd..
Changed then waited for my transport to come.. they were all kinda bored so we skated while waiting for my transport to come..
around 3.15, transport came, changed into my set clothes..had my hair and make up done in the bus then headed to commonwealth drive for filming..

Oh btw, I'm playing the role of a father in this project..haha..i know! I don't look anything like one right? anyhoo... just had to get into the zone and belive that I am a father..

Filming ended at around 8 plus then transport sent me to SGH where I visit my mum again.. she didn't really recognize me with my make up on..lol..

Got home at around 12 plus and had some recording session..long story..
Bob came with his video grapher and director and filmed our recording session in the studio.. I'll get the vids posted after they finish editting em'..
we finished everything by 3 plus and headed straight to bed after that..
Phew!..

I'm really tired now, I'll just update again tmr or something aite..

Seeya, byebye (:

2008-11-14T08:26:00.004+08:00

Hey readers!!! gezz who's back??
lol..I know I know...I've not been updating my blog..
Well.. I gezz I don't really have the time for this kinda stuff.. but I must say it's kinda fun having a blog cos I can express my feelings and tots... But for now, I won't be updating so often..

Well, alotta things happened since my last post..
Don't expect me to type everything that happened..That'll take like forever...
I'll just share some major stuff that happened k..

Well, after iTalentstar, a few agencies contacted me for acting roles so I'm now acting on a part-time basis... I've got a 12 month modelling contract with an agency called PTM Management.. I entered Singapore Inline School and now I'm an Inline Skating Instructor, cool huh? :D... And now, thanks to nEbO Club and G* Star Fam, I'm gonna perform for this year's countdown party at D'marquee ,Downtown East in Pasir Ris!!! haha...I'm so excited about it..It's gonna be off the hook!...everyone and anyone is invited and welcome to the party..bring your friends, your friends' friends and let them bring thier friends and we can all be friends..lol... so yeah..quite a number of things to juggle for a 17 year old huh? :D

Now the bad news...as some of my close friends might know, my mum suffered from a serious heart sickness while giving birth to me and a few weeks ago, she was warded to the hospital again...she had to go through surgery and was admitted to CCU then ICU...she's still warded and my hope for her to recover will never decrease...
I pray for my mum everyday and hope for her to come back home ASAP...
My family misses her..I miss her...even Matin(my baby nephew) is always crying and acting really diff w/o my mum... :'(

I'll update more after work...
gtg...thanks for reading..

Cheers,
Jab(:

2008-03-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone!!
Im back...sorry again for not updating for a very very long time..look at my last post's date..wow...that long huh??

haha..alotta things happened since my last post...some of wich is..the date 27 Feb 2008...yes, the day Mas Selamat escaped from his cell..I was filming the posing and wet scene for the Glamour music video that day at sentosa and on the same day, my sis in-law gave birth to my lil baby nephew...and today, we celebrated his 1 month b'day.lol. Maybe Ill post some of his pics latter..oh btw, his name is Matin...OMG he is soooooo cute!!!!!!! I LOVE BABIES! haha.. I want babies too, can? :p hehehe...

Anyway...I've got some good news and some bad news too...
1 of the bad news is..Alotta contestants from italentstar has been eliminated and now only 4 males and 4 females from each countries are left...We've come so far..its already round 4 now...I had fun going through all of the rounds (Glamour, Passion, Fitness, Buddy) I hope I wont be eliminated by the next round...But its ok, I had fun on this journey and I don't regret anything from it..and as I've said a few times before, I don't really mind if I don't win this comp, Im only here to do what i love..and that is to entertain and to showcase my talent..

1 of the good news is...Im making LOTS and LOTS of new friends from not only Singapore, but also other Asian countries aswell...and I love it!

Some other things that are also going on right now...AffroDyna-MIC Entertainments is going national soon...its gonna be all over Singapore soon so..do look out for it..the management is gonna raise up the bar higher and go the extra mile...YES PPL...WE DARE, NOT ONLY TO DREAM, BUT TO MAKE THAT DREAM COME TRUE....

Me and some of the iTalentstar contestants from Singapore are planning to record an Anthem for iTALENTSTAR and its gonna be released online...its not an official thing..its just a project we'r doing ourselves...cant promise when exactly it'll be released cos most of us are busy, but its gonna be pretty soon ;)

Ill update the pics and vids tmr, I promise...hehe...Im tired right now..
thx for reading btw..
do keep voting and supporting, THANKS
www.italentstar.com SGM04 JABBAR BATHALUDDIN

SEEYA!!!

iTALENTSTAR LAUNCH PARTY AT MOS!

2008-02-22T14:32:00.009+08:00

ME AND SIS AFTER THE SHOW

Heyy yaww!!

Sorry for not updating, busy nowdays..

Anyhoo..Im just gonna skip and tell about all the fun parts aite..
Starting with Tue.

The thing started at 8.30, I came at 10. DAMN! I felt sooo bad cuz it was like the 1st time meeting and working with the organizers and judges and stuff. But they were cool so..they didn't really mind me coming late.. Then, Mr Joshua Luke(Mr Singapore) came to be our so called 'teacher'.
He's an AWESOME AWESOME guy! Very friendly, very funny and the things he taught us was really useful too! He won many many man hunts, beauty pegeons and he's the coach for miss Singapore universe. He taught us how to post, how to dress, how to groom, how to stand, how to seat, how to talk...and MANY MANY MANY MORE..Some of the other iTalentstar contestants brought their cams so..Im gonna post some of the pics latter, not now..for now, lets skip to wed!

iTALENTSTAR LAUNCH PARTY AT MOS!!
It was awesome!!!!! beyond awesome..it was amazing!

Lest go step by step aite..

Met all the iTalentstar contestants, then head to MOS together for the rehearsal at around 1+..yes, in the afternoon! haha...entered, then chilled for awhile..chatted and got to know each other a lil more..and yes! i am soooo happy and glad to be part of italentstar...the contestants are great man! we get along really well..we simply click!

The coordinator talked to us for awhile and briefed us what's gonna happen. Then we were sent to the Cosmo room upstairs which was kinda our dressing room..Put our stuff there, then got back down again for more briefing. Then all of a sudden, boxes and more boxes were brought in through the back entrance...we were all like..'huh? what are those??'
then, when we got closer to take a look..it was macdonalds...they ordered alotta food for us and all the staff! haha...we ate and joke and talked soo much..aww..if only you knew how much fun we had..haha...

Then it was rehearsal time..was fun too..rehearsals were till 4+..
Then had to go back in the Cosmo room for hair and make up..
The hair and make up artists were awesome too..esp Bryan..he's a great dude..
Make up and hair and stuff till like..8+..we also took allotta pics before, during and after make up..then..it was show time at 9+ ...
btw, here are the contestants' names and codes =)

SGM01 - Evan Lu Pinwen
SGM02 - Jason Yik
SGM03 - Mike Mirucki
SGM04 - Jabbar Bathaluddin
SGM05 - Fah Jiade
SGM06 - Allister Kee
SGM07 - Tan Rui xiang
SGM08 - Wilson Ang
SGM09 - Gerald Aclan
SGM10 - Gim Goh

SGF01 - Xinhui Val
SGF02 - Jaclyn Ng
SGF03 - Kash Nagaraj
SGF04 - Geraldine Chia
SGF05 - Iko Liao
SGF06 - Diyana Jasmi
SGF07 - Isabel Ng
SGF08 - Izz Idris
SGF09 - Tan Gillian
SGF10 - Nur Ashikeen

Im tired to type more..so for now, lets let the pics do the talking, check it out..

JUST GOT TO MOS, BEFORE BRIEFING AND STUFF

EVAN, ALLISTER AND ME

JUST CHILLIN', STILL WAITING FOR THE REST..

ME AND MIKE AT COSMO ROOM

ALLISTER, ME, MIKE AND JIADE FOOLING AROUND

THE HUNKS OF SINGAPORE'S ITALENTSTAR, LOL (b4 make up)

ALLISTER, ME, MIKE, RUI XIANG, IZZ, KEITH AND VAL (after make up and hair)

VAL, IZZ AND ME..THEY ROCK! LOL

ME, VAL AND JASON..YEA, WE LOOK DIFF AFTER MAKE UP RITE?

ME AND IZZ UP ON STAGE

OUTSIDE COSMO

JASON, WILSON, IZZ, ME AND ALLISTER JUST FOOLING AROUND B4 THE SHOW, THEY ROCK MY WORLD!! =D

SOME OF THE GUYS, RIGHT AFTER MAKE UP

ITALENTSTAR ROCK!!!!=D

SOME RANDOM PICS..ME AND IZZ

ALLISTER, IZZ, ME AND JASON IN ACTION..LOL

ME AND IZZ ON STAGE

B4 THE SHOW

Im tired of posting pics..haha..maybe latter ill post more aite
don't forget to vote!!!
www.italentstar.com

byebye!!!!

2008-02-17T09:11:00.007+08:00

HEY THERE!

1st of all, I wanna thank Jumari for pestering me to come to that Supernumerary party on friday..I wasn't in the mood to go but..it turned out to be fun!!!THE WHOLE PLACE TURNED INTO A DANCE FLOOR AND MOSH PIT! Its been like 6 months since the last time I partied and clubbed, so it really gave me a great feeling, but I didn't drink tho..hehe..Noriz, Nadia and Fara was there too..notty eh u guys..pantang tengok JABJAB getting jiggy..LOL!

THATS NADIA, ME, JUM AND NORIZ..
This is prolly the 1st time in 6 months I got wet and wild on the floor.lol!

Wed, iTALENTSTAR launch party at MOS! woohooo! cant wait!

BYEBYE!!!!
DUN FORGET TO VOTE FOR ME YEA!
SGM04 Jabbar Bathaluddin
www.italentstar.com

2008-02-14T19:49:00.003+08:00

Hey!
Sorry for not updating..

Just got back from getting my hair cut!
Me and elder bro vroomed to Tampines, he used my dad's super four, I used his Wave.
Im quite happy with my hair cut, tho its still long, but i LIKE.
We raced otw home, from edgefield plains to edgedale plains and gezz what..I WON! haha..
Wave vs super four seh..walau..

Anyhoo, i got alotta news. Some good, some bad..really BAD.
But lets not talk bout the bad news aite, it'll just make me tear again..

One of the good news is..Im shorlisted for the top 10 iTalentstar male for Singapore!
Got invited to alotta launch parties and dinners. One of wich is on the 20th Feb at MOS!

DO ME A FAVOR YA'LL!
VOTE FOR ME!!!!!!!!
YOU CAN WIN GREAT PRIZES JUST BY VOTING, REALLY!
ITS REALLY EASY, JUST GO TO www.italentstar.com AND SIGN UP AS A VOTER AND VOTE FOR ME, SUPPORT SINGAPORE'S TALENT!
(Jabbar Bathaluddin [SG M 04])

Im currently in the 3rd place, yea..sad kan?
Pls help me get atleast second place..
VOTE FOR ME!
After voting, inform me..so I can thank you properly.

And also add me up on my iTalentstar fan profile on friendster!
www.friendster.com/jabbarsgm04

pls pls pls vote for me, you can win great nokia prizes.
And can also win trips for two to..uhh..not sure where..but..you can win all these just by voting!
So do vote, its really easy.

THANKS!

MUCH LOVE!

2008-02-04T12:47:00.001+08:00

Im back!!..
Bought alotta stuff there at johor..shopping was kinda fun but way diff than shopping in Singapore..
Helmi's house was freedom!! haha
Ill post more latter..for now..
I got to noe that sumone spread rumors that i died!!
WTF???? IM ALIVE LA DEH!!
Who the hell sseh..ish!
My parents scolded me, brother scolded me, friends too..
They tot i was playing a prank or sth..walau..
Y the hell wud i wanna play such a childish game??
My mum told me some ppl even cried..WTF????

Johor=freedom
Back home=STRESS!

WORSE BIRTHDAY EVER

2008-02-01T10:51:00.000+08:00

Its official..This is my worse birthday ever..Am alone at home..
I found out sth, blogs are one of the best place to let out how I feel..
And for now, Im feeling really really depressed and down..
I think im gonna continue weed..Burn, u down for that??
Don't bother cheering me up, it'll just make it worse.
Thx to all my friends and family for wishing me..Im glad u guys didn't forget, atleast sum ppl care.

I found out sth else too..girls really can make u do stupid things..like fall in love..
Im not saying it because I wanna be sarcastic to sumone..dun get the wrong idea..
Im just saying this in general..maybe im not fated to be in love..

Hey Dudu..if ur reading this, Im really very happy for u and Feeq...I wish u guys all the best..
Feeq, if ur reading this, thx for ur friendship and im sorry i let u down, I couldn't make her happy just like u said..do take good care of her for me k..Ill always have ur back man, just gimme a call if u need me aite bro..My apologies to both of u if ive done anything wrong ..
May Allah bless and smile upon u two..

MuchLove
Dodo/Jabbar

2008-01-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hey readers!!

Gezz who's back..lol
Sorry I have not beep updating been busy lately.

Anyhoo...Like Ive said, my days are getting worse..
Ive disappointed many..

Anyhoo, Im just gonna fast fwd to what happened today aite..
Woke up at around 8..Had breakfast..blablabla..
Got ready at around noon, then off to Riz's studio.
Usual stuff...Im kinda not in the mood to blog at the moment, sori.
Lets let the pics do all the talking for now. :

Oh yea..b4 I forget..My old buddy, Fairos came by the studio and recorded a few songs..and there's this one particular song that i would like u guys to listen..Untukmu Ibu, originally sung by Mamat from Exist..Its an old song but, Fairos brought sexy back la sey..kk lame..I really fell in love with that song..cus the song is about one's mother. PHEW! If only I could sing..urgh! I wanna sing la seyyyy!! haizz..its ok mak..Ill prove my love to u sumhow, BOLEH??!! haha..check it out, its the 1st song on my Imeem playlist at the right side of the screen>>>
you're prolly listening to it right now..haha..
here's the lyrics to the song..

Some words may not match, i got this frm a sucky website..

oh! ibu
kau disiram bayu pagi
kehilangan terasa kini
dan kesepian

dan aku
bagai purnama gerhana
di ibarat lautan kering
tiada tempat ku layarkan
hasrat ku ini
masih belum sempat
kubuktikannya kepadamu
ibu tersayang
kucurahkan rasia hati

ku tatapi potret mu berulang kali
kurenungkan kalimah yang diberi

Tuhan Yang Esa
ampuni dosa ibu
tempatkan mereka
diantara kekasih kekasihMu

Oh! ibu
kau kasih sejati
kutaburkan doa
untukmu ibu

ampunilah dosaku
sejak ku dilahirkan
hingga akhir hayatmu

disaat ini
ku teruskan hidup
tanpa bersamamu ibu

Tuhan Yang Esa
ampuni dosa ibu
tempatkan meraka
diantara kekasih kekasihMu

Oh! ibu
kau kasih sejati
kutaburkan doa
untukmu ibu

ampunilah dosaku
sejakku dilahirkan
hingga akhir hayatmu
ibu

kini aku hilang tempat mengadu

Oh! ibu
damailah engkau disana
ku taburi doa mewangi
hadiah dari anakmu
Ibu

This is Fairos, he's shy to even look at the cam..lol

That's Karim and me..He edited this for me..he's my childhood friend.
Since I moved, we hadn't see each other for a long time =(
Alotta things changed since I moved )=

Ppl say I look diff with specs on..I donnoe =|

okie bye for now =)

CHEERS!

2008-01-15T17:48:00.000+08:00

Hey..

Sorri for not updating, nowdays..Iv got no mood to log in..
Lets skip all da bullshhh that happened for the pass few days aite.

Woke up at round 6+ today, checked my cell, reported strength(report strength kape??^^)
then got ready for school. SCHOOL??? haha..kidd, got ready to go ITE Sime to reapply.
I know what u guys are thinking, how many times am I applying for ITE rite?
Don't worry, its not that the ITEs kicked me..just that I kicked the ITEs, can?
haha..kidd..I rejected the 1st few courses..cos none of them suit my interest, in other words, THEY ARE NOT MY CUP OF TEA, can?. I don't wanna tell ya'll what course I applied just now, Ill tell u guys latter aite..hehe

Got back at round 11+ , did some editing on yesterday's recording, cleared out my lappy and chilled on the sofa watching tv. Went down to buy sum junk food..and watched more tv..damn..
no-school life is GOOOOD..hahakzz
Fell asleep on the sofa, the next thing i knew.. it was raining and im alone at home..or was I? hmm(jeng jeng jeng!) <Took my cell, reported strength again..hehe..den turned on my lappy.
As I was chattin, I heard some noise..Then I heard my bro's door opening (*EeEeEaAkKk!*) <My brother la siol! hahakzz..scared rite? tats y..I know..I tot I was alone too.
Anyhoo, he went to the kitchen to get sth to eat..den went back in..lol
MENDAK!

k byebye

2008-01-11T13:54:00.000+08:00

Hello readers.

Look at the time!!I just woke up!!And I even missed Friday's prayers!! lol.
Just got back from my photo shoot this morning..
Spent the whole night posing and traveling from one place to another.
I kinda had fun, but I really feel bad bout how i treated Ben and Rex tho, they were like..showing me the shots, telling me to pose like this and like that while I was giving them this.. 'sleepy mood'

I fell asleep many times during the shoot cuz I was feeling damn tired, and hungry..
I didn't even had my dinner b4 going. After some shots were taken that night, we went to eat at Mc'Ds at around bugiz, that, I enjoyed..cuz we just chilled and chat for like, half and hour and I had the chance to at least sit down..then, we continued with the shoot.
Well, I can't promise you the photos will turn out good but, I can promise that they will turn out ugly, can? =D

Am going to meet Mazta G(Feroz) latter at around 5, for recording. Wow, Im so not looking forward to that, can? I donnoe y, but we just simply cant click. Maybe I'll take pics with him latter and post it tonight k?
Hmm, what else..oh yea!
And, I miss someone. =D

BYE!

2008-01-09T16:52:00.000+08:00

8 JAN2008

Sorry bout not updating ytd, was lazy hehe..

anyhooz..MY MUM'S BACK HOME!!! hehe, miss her like hell..
she dispatched ytd morn. After fetching her, went to pasir ris to meet ben and fai for the photo shoot, but bcos of the rain, the shoot was postponed to thurs -_-
So, u guys gotta wait till like..next thurs then the photos would be ready :D
and don't worry, I will smile in some of the shots...I hope.. =D

In other news, DODO'S IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehe..wanna noe who's the lucky lady?
bluekz!!! maybe next time..hehe
Im chatting with her now *winx*

byebye
DAMN, I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!!
WAKAKAKAKA...

2008-01-06T20:52:00.000+08:00

Hello heloo errone..

1st of all, I reli wanna wish my dad a very happy b'day.
He is the perfect father, I reli thank Allah for him. =))

Nth much happened today actly.
Just got home actly, from Riz's studio. Recorded a new track, but not finished yet.
Reached there at around 4+ . Helped him adjust his mixers and software, then started listening to some beats and started scribbling sum rhymes. We actly wanted to make a kinda jumpy and hyped song, but we thought it was kinda common. Lastly, we tried sumthing out on this certain beat, then it sounded better in Malay so, that's how we started.

I didn't take pics in the studio booth but..I do hav some pics to upload :D

Jiie and Me, during results day.

hehe..look at my ugly face, this is random.

K CHECK THIS OUT, I WAS BORED, DUN MIND ME =D

Just got back from customs. Do i look like a criminal? lol

err..no comments, haha.

An old pic. Sum of u might noe.

That's all guys..
Cheers!

2008-01-05T15:33:00.000+08:00

4TH JAN 2008, YESTERDAY, 11.00P.M

HELLO!

Came back frm court and customs..
the officers there are FUCKING stupid..
they dun even noe how to interrogate ppl, HAHA!!
I outpointed them 100%, stupid fucks.
Hehe, Im sorry bout the language, Im just soo fuckin' happy bout this.
Anyhoo, we reached court at round 12, all the way till round 6+, CAN?
Couldn't enter at 1st, cos i wore jeans -_-
They didn't wanna waist time so they just let me in.
I reli admired the lawyer mayn, if it wasn't for him, I would be dead yo! haha.
Anyhoo, I got my phone back, and am getting the car back on the 12th of Jan.
Hehe..who wanna race??! HAHAHA, DODO's SIOW.
Kla..I think Im feeeling way too crazy to type any further.
So, seeya guys around!
BYEBYE!

=D

2008-01-03T19:21:00.000+08:00

Tried my best to enjoy myself today.

Woke up at 7 this morn, called a cab, got ready and headed to changkat changi sec.
Had to help out with the sec 1s thing..I kinda had fun tho..and Im pretty sure the sec 1s too had fun..hehe..this year's sec 1s were damn small and SOME of them are damn cute..but no doubt all of them are damn childish and irritating. Today, was their 2nd day of secondary school. I came ytd for their 1st day but Im too lazy to type what happened ytd =D . Anyhoo, today was games day and Akmal, Ryan and me were in charge of
Thug Of War(jeng jeng jeng! =D) We had fun, reli..before we let the sec1s play, we tried out 1st to see whether it was safe or not. It was 50% safe but, who gives a shhh, hehe :D

After skool, I bought cigarettes, not for me mind u, I don't smoke, Dodo is a good boi :) . I bought it for Akmal and Ryan, was doing them a favour ;) Then headed to Ryan's to chill and chat.

Chilled till around 5+. Then went home. Otw home, met my lil bro..he wasn't being as annoying as always. He treated me pretty well actly, hope he stays tat way tho. Reached home, freshen up, had a bite of my lovely choc bar and turned on my precious lappy.

Haizz..gotta enjoy as much as I can for now, tmr Im going to settle my case at court and stuff.
This will prolly be my last post for the next few months or year.

Don't miss me too much =D
I'll never forget what ever my friends and family had done for me..And there's no words to describe how precious they r to me, for that, I wanna thank them.

Byebye,
Dodo signing off.

2008-01-01T09:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Damn..last nite was awesome!! went clubbing wit sum frens, partied like hell!! I got soooo drunk I didn't even remembered how I got to my ex's house, naked!..HAHA!!

PSYCH!
Im kidd..Was at home last nite.. I came back from meeting my lawyer at around 8..
When I entered the house, noone was at the hall..So i went up to my dad's room..and my mum was complaining she was in pain..everyone was like..getting ready to take her to the hospital..I was like, panicking..coz i didn't even noe what happened..(Put urself in my position)
Anyhoo..we help her up, and my dad told me to stay at home, while him and my 2nd sis followed..
so, that was how my countdown went down..was damn bored at home..noone to countdown with, so i just went to bed...now, my mum's still at the hospital..Im at home with my 1st sis and sis in-law..Im going to the hospital latter to check on my mum...I reli hope she's fine..

Till here, Ill update more latter.
Jab

2007-12-30T18:51:00.000+08:00

Hello again..
Shira told me to keep updating..I donnoe what to write..
So I decided to post one of my poem..
I wrote this piece in 2006.
I titled it 'Evening Song'
Check it out..

Evening Song

Look off, dear Love, across the sallow sands,
And mark yon meeting of the sun and sea,
How long they kiss in sight of all the lands,
Longer, as long can be.

Now, in the sea's red vintage melts the sun
As Egypt's pearl dissolved in rosy wine
And Cleopatra night drinks all. This done,
Love, lay thine hand in mine.

Come forth, sweet stars, and comfort heaven's heart,
Glimmer, your waves, around else unlighted sands,
Oh night! divorce our sun and sky apart
Never our lips, or our hands.

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Whoever's reading this..I reli wanna thank you =)

It reli reli makes me happy when ppl read any of my poetry..

Makes me feel that there's hope for me to be a successful Poet.

Till here

Cheers,

*Jab*

2007-12-30T11:47:00.000+08:00

SUMONE told me there's not much pics in my blog..so Im just gonna post some of my old pics k..
Its just some randome pics..Check it out...

Wan, Me, Bone, Aim.
An old pic at GP in Tampines, haizzz..

Me and Yus.

CANDID. This was in 2006. I was teaching some of my juniors some army techticles when Andrew snapped this.

Me, Abu and Burn. Car broke down at TPE, bole?.

2006 Nabil, Me and Andrew with Part Alpha.
I MISS SEC SCH AND NCC =(

That's all for now..
byebye

2007-12-30T11:05:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 29 Dec. I didn't update ytd so..this is ytd's post k..

I woke up at 9+, was at Burn's house..I overnight there for 1 day..cuz I missed Tampines.
Went home at round 10+..Burn's car was still at the customs so I had to take the bus =(
Reached home at round 11+ then my mum told me to get ready for my cuzz's wedding.
A long lost cuzz from Australia. I don't even know her name. She came here to get marry.
I went there, met alotta ppl that I donnoe. Was freaking irritating cuz my lil cuzzs were there too.
You noe how lil cuzzs are..PHEW!.
Came home at 9+, turned on my lappy and chill..My laptop is my baby..I donnoe what i would do without it..

Was chatting, checking friendster and at the same time editing some beats..then,(JENG JENG JENG!) my idiot brother came and pester me for the lappy..He wanted to use it, he said it was urgent..
URGH! I was reli bumped cuz I was like..chillin' and stuff..As usual, as Im a very good, caring, nice, humble etc. elder brother =D , I let him use my lappy. I was chatting wit DUDU, Shakira and Wan..so I told them I wud brb..I even told DUDU I wud be back cuz my bro wanna use the lappy. Then, while waiting, I watched some tv on my bed. The next thing i knew, I was awaked by my annoying sibbs this morning. PHEW! I was damn pissed off. They were playing ps2 and making so much noise in my room. I bet they did that on purpose. I feel like they have sumthing against me..They reli treat me differently. Anywayz, Im just gonna chill at the moment. Ill update more tonight aite..lets find out what more crazy stuff Im gonna go thru latter.

Byebye for now,
Jab

2007-12-29T02:14:00.000+08:00

Im back..

I reli feel shitty today..my days are getting worst overnight..PERIOD!
spent most of today at Riz's studio..recorded some new samples...remixed sum new beats and stuff..was suppose to meet Isya and Dewi today for the performance, i didnt turn up..damn..
heard the show went down the tube..haizz..what wud the world be w/o me?..BOLEH??
and i reli reli wanna apologise to them..my schedule was a lil tight today..well..ill make it up to them sumhow..

Met Burn at round 9 pm, to talk bout the case and also about our new collabo wit Izat from Deuze..And ouh..Im making a new track with a rapper and a singer from Atlanta and California too..still in the process, can't wait..that is like the only good news for this month so far..been kinda missing out lately..I got alotta new tracks to release but sumhow, I cant find the right time to let them exit, if ya noe what I mean..

In other news, im meeting my lawyer on monday morning to settle my case
on the 4th of Jan..hope things will go down smoothly tho..I reli hav a bad feeling bout this.

I donnoe y, but im kinda getting used to the name Dodo..its kinda catchy..haha..thx to sumone..
crazy DUDU..
bluekzz..

till here
BYEBYE =)

...

2007-12-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

Woke up late today..round 10+..
I even missed suboh..haizz..
Showered, den had to company my anoyying lil brother to his school cos he has to get his new long pants for next year..he's gonna be in sec 3 ..and he is getting ruder as days pass by..

Otw home, we stopped by at KFC in Tampines to get some food..i was damn hungry..I reli miss Tampines btw..soo much!

Reached home at around 2+..performed my solat for Zohor, den Asar..then went online..
Isya den asked me for the beats for the performance on friday...I dun even hav the mood for the performance on friday..anyhooz..
Got to check my friendster and stuff..was chatting on msn when my stupid lil brother came to me and said he wanted to use my laptop..well..as I am a nice elder brother, I let him used for a few hours...he played games and watch videos on youtube..he finally stop at round 10.10..
He reli anoyys me sumtimes..currently chatting wit Isma, Fiq Kechik, Nurul, Fara and Atin..
I reli thank fiq alot..he reli wants to help me bout my probs....Its ok bro(Fiq)..all i want is ur friendship..

Im reli feeling down these few days..reli stressing out!!i reli wish i cud trun back time!
Allah, if u hear me..pls help me out..Your the only one who can help me. AMIN.

Uhhh..Hi..

2007-12-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

Hello..
1st blog and this is my 1st post .

Nth much happend today, went online this evening..
Chatted with some friends, checked my friendster and stuff, as usual..
Then chatted with Isma..bout alotta things..
We weren't close during my secondary school period..we didn't even talk at school at all..
She's like a new friend to me, and she helped me alot..
And she even helped me with this blog. lol
She made this blog for me..check out the pic up there..
She made it for me...nice huh? haha

As usual..im going to bed late..err..
I think that's about all i can type for today..
Keep checking in..whoever's reading this..
Bet noone is..

Cheers,
*JABBAR*